Double Self-Love...

"Our first and last love is self-love." ~ Christian Nestell Bovee

I love "Myself and I", so Its almost equivalent to double self-love. But someone (the Almighty???) got jealous of my possession of this double self-love, so I got J-factor in my love. Now the problem is that because of this J-factor I am unable to proceed further. Although the J thing is trying to support me, but the persons affected by this J-factor are not willing to... So I am keeping my fingers crossed to get my solution from this soon...

Disclaimer: This is a personal blog-post. The opinions expressed here are my own.

Struggle of Life...

I always heard from other, "Life is very unpredictable...". I never gave any thought to it. But I am getting lot of examples in front of me to believe that. I never predicted that life can be so cruel that one day you are on the top, holding your head high, giving suggestions to others about life's struggle and the next moment you hit the bottom rock of the ocean and not only hit it but you get stuck there and struggling for the survival.

I always thought that the fear of global meltdown will never touch me, but I WAS PROVEN WRONG (again...!!!). I can feel the heat of meltdown and even I am melting down to the core. Every person in life is afraid of failures, I am not the exception. People say you learn from failures But what if I have to pay for the failures of others??? This is not the right way to play any game. Yes the life seems like a game to me now. You have to compete for your existence and then also you are not sure of winning it. And the tragedy is that after any failure in this game I can not even say that I played well but I lost.

Today I remember words of my good friend "Tumne kiya kya hai BE karne ke bad???". Yes I have done nothing, I was just wandering here and there because I have never face the brutality of life. Now I have to do something for me. I will play against all odds, I will fight against them all till I have energy left in me. And I will prove that the law of gravitational force is not applicable on my life...

Tale of 500 Rs.

Touching Video...



courtesy - Pritesh jain

Solution to Falling Leaves...

I was thinking of old friends today
and how many of them have slipped away.
Moved, got married, or stopped calling so much,
Found new friends, got busy, and just lost touch.
It reminded me of falling leaves .
Every autumn the leaves fall from the trees.
Some stay longer than others, but eventually -
Each leaf must fall, I'm told,
leaving the tree alone to face the cold.
Why is it that in the time of utmost need
the leaves would seek to leave the tree?
And when we need our friends around
we look and they cannot be found?

Of course these friendships come and go
and in the spring new leaves will grow.
But I prefer autumn friends of old
with crackling laughter and colors bold.
And then I thought of you.
That one stubborn leaf that won't let go.
That clings despite the winds that blow.
Fighting ice, and snow, and winter's stings
Hanging on right through till spring.
So I guess that's what you are to me -
The very last leaf to leave the tree.
I know it seems silly, but it's true.
When I see that last leaf...I think of you.

....don't drift away.... will you...???

Don't Worry... I wont drift away....

Human Behavior...

Its a perfect human behavior that I have been experiencing in my surroundings now-a-days. Each human being is fascinated towards the things those are not available to him/her, and this rule is not only applicable for materialistic things but also in our friendship, relationship, job everywhere.

We always run behind the things which are elusive to us, we dream for something and after achieving it we dream bigger. But this rule should be applicable only for the materialistic things not for the friendship or relationship. If you want a better job, then this is perfectly fine. If you want to have comfort in your life, It is also perfectly fine. But if you look out for better relationship and friendship on cost of the existing one than it is surely not good. You should learn to know the importance of different things in your life, you can not apply the same logic everywhere. You can get bored of things, but getting bored of friendship and relationship is not acceptable. At the same time for the receiver I should tell you should not be too available for anyone otherwise you will lose your importance in that person's life. But the receiver is not wrong he/she is certainly following the rules of friendship/relationship of never to leave the company of your mate in any situation.

I have seen lot of examples recently in my surroundings and I feel whatever is the situation, whomsoever you are referring to, just don't let others to put down your importance and value... Although sometimes it becomes unavoidable to do the same, but at that moment the others should be so important and generous so that for them you can do anything...

My New Look...

Its my new look some call it Ghajini Style, Some call it Obama ... I like both :)

I wished I could have...

I wished I could have loved you ,
the way you wished to be loved..

I loved you in my brightest days,
and even in the darkest nights.
each morning I woke up,
thinking I can love you one more day...
each night I slept happily,
coz I can love you tomorrow again...

I walked in the rains , thinking-
I have your right hand in my left..
You were my strength in my hardest times,
You were my weakness even,
I wish I could have loved you,
the way you wish to be loved.....

but ,
as days pass to weeks and then to months,
months changing their color to years,
I know dear, I no longer remains in you...
there are many reasons for you not to love me,
but, I cant find a reason not to love you..
and deep from my heart I swear..
I WILL LOVE U till my heart Beats....

I wished I could have loved you ,
the way you wished to be loved..
I pray to god, at least,
make me good enough so that,
you will love me back the way I love you...

Excellence...

A gentleman once visited a temple under construction where he saw a sculptor making an idol of God. Suddenly he noticed a similar idol lying nearby.

Surprised, he asked the sculptor, "Do you need two statues of the same idol?" "No," said the sculptor without looking up, "We need only one, but the first one got damaged at the last stage."

The gentleman examined the idol and found no apparent damage. "Where is the damage?" he asked."There is a scratch on the nose of the idol." said the sculptor, still busy with his work.

"Where are you going to install the idol?" The sculptor replied that it would be installed on a pillar twenty feet high. "If the idol is that far, who is going to know that there is a scratch on the nose?" the gentleman asked.

The sculptor stopped his work, looked up at the gentleman, smiled and

said, "I know it and God knows it!"

The desire to excel should be exclusive of the fact whether someone appreciates it or not. "Excellence" is a drive from inside, not outside. Excel at a task today - not necessarily for someone else to notice but for your own satisfaction.